This isn't a hotline. This isn't an app.
This is a signal from someone who survived the same trench.
Built by people who were left on read when it mattered most.
What's playing in your head right now?
Music bypasses the walls we build with words.
Nothing comes to mind → tell me how you feel instead
Listening...
No wrong answers. Just finding the right tool.
Yeah. That tracks.
The thing screaming in your chest isn't trying to hurt you.
It's been standing guard so long it forgot how to stand down.
You don't need to explain it. I know what that sounds like.
PROTOCOL
THE WASTEGATE
Anger is not a sin; it is potential energy.
Do not swallow the poison. Write it down. Burn the paper. Run until your lungs burn.
Let the steam out so the engine doesn't blow.
This isn't anger management. This is pressure relief. Your body needs to discharge the voltage physically.
Push against a wall until your arms shake. Run until your lungs hurt more than your chest. Get it OUT of your body and onto something that can hold it without breaking.
"Anger is not a sin; it is potential energy. Do not swallow the poison."
I know that weight.
This isn't laziness. This isn't weakness.
This is what happens when you've been running at full capacity for so long that the system starts to fail. Not because you're broken — because you're overloaded.
PROTOCOL
THE AC ENGINE
You are stuck in DC power (constant drain). Switch to AC (High/Low).
If you are thinking, stop and do with your hands.
If you are working, stop and feel.
Oscillate to survive.
You're not a battery that drains and dies. You're an AC engine that can switch polarity. Right now you're stuck in DC — constant drain, one direction, no recovery cycle.
You can't run at 100% forever. Shift to 40% intentionally rather than crashing to 0%.
"You are stuck in DC power. You need to switch to AC. Switch the gear to save the transmission."
The void. I've been there.
Not sad. Not angry. Just... nothing.
It's not that you don't care. It's that caring hurt too much for too long.
So your system shut down. That's not weakness. That's a circuit breaker that tripped when the voltage got too high.
PROTOCOL
THE BEACON
Do not chase the light. Be the lighthouse.
Stand still. Keep the signal running. The ships will find you when they are ready.
Presence is the only requirement.
When you're numb, most people try to "pull you out." They demand you be happy, be motivated, be normal. That doesn't work. It just makes you retreat further.
What DOES work: Finding people who keep their light on WITHOUT chasing you. A Beacon is someone who doesn't demand you "get better." Just... stays consistent.
Think of ONE person in your life who doesn't pressure you. That's your Beacon.
"Numbness isn't weakness. It's a circuit breaker that tripped when the voltage got too high. You're not broken. You're in power-save mode."
The loop. Round and round.
Your mind won't stop. Same thoughts. Same fears. Same scenarios playing on repeat.
That's not you being crazy. That's your system trying to solve something it can't solve by thinking harder.
PROTOCOL
THE GROUND WIRE
Diagnostic: Is this a Snake (Immediate Threat) or a Hug (Safety)?
If you are safe, touch the floor. Name 5 things you see. Ground the voltage into the earth.
Snake = immediate danger. Your body is tight, breath is shallow, you feel like running or fighting.
Hug = safety. Your body can relax, breath can deepen, you're not in physical danger right now.
If it's a Snake: You need to move. Leave the room. Cold water on your face. Get physically OUT.
If it's a Hug: Touch the floor. Name 5 things you see. The thoughts are lying about the urgency.
SECONDARY PROTOCOL
THE GOVERNOR
If grounding isn't working, you might need to stop all inputs.
The Governor Protocol: No new conversations. No new information. No new decisions for 24-72 hours.
Your system is overloaded. Stop adding. Just stop.
This isn't avoidance. This is rate-limiting. Even servers need to throttle requests when they're overwhelmed.
Walls closing in. No exits visible.
The feeling of being trapped isn't always about physical space.
Sometimes it's a relationship. A job. A situation you can't see your way out of.
But here's the thing: the cage is usually smaller than the room.
PROTOCOL
THE AIR GAP
High-voltage power lines don't use rubber insulation. They use air. Distance IS protection.
When you're trapped, the first move isn't to find the handle. It's to create space.
Leave the room. Leave the house if you can. Step away from the phone for 24 hours before responding to that message.
You don't have to solve this right now. You just have to stop touching the wire.
SECONDARY PROTOCOL
THE OPEN HAND
The trap is the fist. The freedom is the open palm.
We do not grasp; we offer. Transparency is the only key that unlocks this cage.
Show someone your actual hand. Not the polished version. Not the "I'm fine" version. The real one.
Radical transparency: "I feel trapped and I don't know what to do."
Sometimes the cage unlocks when you stop pretending you're not in one.
That's not nothing. That's the whole point.
You don't have to be fixed. You don't have to perform healing.
You just have to keep showing up.
The signal stays on. Come back whenever.